Cat Mom's Not Perfect

Perfectionism

Ummmm yea. Here are my hodge podge thoughts on this subject.
My addiction = striving to be the best at everything i do/attempt.
This isn't a bad thing, in some ways . . . But, when the desire to be phenomenal
in everything overtakes rational thinking. Then you may have a problem.

Today, I realized that even though I have left my school days behind, I still have the desire to 'succeed' and 'achieve.' I've taken on more than my share of projects in my first 1 1/2 years at work.

This is embarrassing to admit, because it's not 'kosher' to admit how important it is for me to be successful and 'perfect.' I know it's ridiculous....but still...Also, I drive myself a wee bit insane at times with the ridiculous standards I set - whether it was grades when I was in school, the level of my semi-vegetarianism/healthy eating, my exercise, or my work. Even though I now STRIVE for balance, am 10 million times more laid back then 5 years prior . . . I still fall into these ruts where nothing is ever good enough.

I threw the word out 3 years ago (perfect), but I have to confess the desire is still there. Yoga teaches me to let go of this desire. Working with kids helps me to be more flexible and fly by the minute. I let go every day, and then the desire to be 'perfect' comes creeping back, under my skin.

Middle Ground, Schmiddle Ground. BLAH LALLALALA.

"I don't want to be perfect. That would be way too much pressure." (A friend)

(JUst throwin out thoughts...)